This week is technically the first full week of April. For me though it is so much more. It is the start of a new journey for me. This isn’t my first blog, but I hope it will be the most rewarding of my blogs as I start fresh. With a new stage in my life. My previous blog was pretty popular, but it felt like it was a different life. So a few months ago when we said goodbye, I started this new blog, but there was a sense of incompatibility for a while, I knew why, I was not ready. I was still in a state of transition in my life. I have officially transitioned though.
This week began a new stage in my life.
I started a new job this week. Well in theory it was a continuation of my old job but with a permanent position and contract and pretty title with business cards. I am happy to be with this company and growing. I feel settled, like the storm that was my life for the last few years has settled and the sun is finally returning.
I just returned from a long vacation to a comforting and happy destination. Nothing fancy like a tropical island, but instead a place I have only ever been to once before that felt like home. The last time I was here my best friend got engaged. This time I return to celebrate the birth of her chid. This place is home in a way, at least the home of my unicorn. Where people are always kind, nice, thoughtful, caring, fearless, strong, intelligent and humble. I often feel like this is where princes and princesses meet for their happily ever afters, but where one best friend has found love and family here, another has felt trial and heartbreak. So I know it’s not all unicorns and rainbows, but I sure like to wish it is.
I said goodbye to a dream this week, and decided to settle on reality. With it though comes a bit of peace as I move on with my life and fixate on myself. I found selfishness this week, or at least the ability to be okay with if. As my therapist said, it’s much needed, and it is something I am working on.
This week starts a new chapter in my life, I am ready to tackle it. I am ready to understand and grasp the happiness that floats within and around me.
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